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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 15:41

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Ive learnt so much.

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Was to survive, this bastard.

But it wasn’t much.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

It was going to be , some day.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Are you already having anal sex?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He resisted the act ,that day.

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I said to her

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Put me off passion for life!!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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I waited trembling.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

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Comes on , in middle age.

He knew the spot.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

How come Jesus died on Friday and rose on Sunday? That's not 3 days and three nights.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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Im still living with it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was very sick at this time too.

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My life is so biszare .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Why did i forgive my father ?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I think the readers, may guess!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I have no regrets .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She married twice! .

I was seconnd youngest,

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I don,t even have a pension.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We all went to grammer schools

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

This is soul school!.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I was scared of men, in general

One cannot live in the past .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She loved him until the end.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But ive been too sick for many years..

But, we were locked up after school.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

(And it was in our own minds.)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My family never makes their pension either.

She was in good health!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

We were not on the streets..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was 9 years of age.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

All the time i was locked up.

Would this be the day?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

What did i know ?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I write beautiful poetry .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I never cut or harmed myself..

When she asked me how she looked .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I will be 64.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She found it foreign!.

And i lived it daily.

So, i spoilt her more .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

So whats the point in blame.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She wouldn,t have been !

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I could never make a relationship work though!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Who then, do I blame.?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.